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Aaron Crowley: Asking for a sexual favor. That sexual assault, but because it’s porn and because sex is the nature of, you know, the industry because sexual assault is the nature of the industry. Um, you know, it’s normal. This is exactly what goes on. Aaron Crowley: Um, you know, going in the prayer and meditation, it was that alone time in my prayer and meditation time. That really was very healing and therapeutic for me. And then also as I dug in and researched and learned more like whenever I, uh, first got into this type of research on the porn industry and sexual trauma and all that, that was, it really shed a light on me and kind of opened my eyes to understand things from a psychological point of view. Whenever I went to the national center, sexual exploitations, um, summit, like I think it was their first summit that I went to all the information that I got from you guys from other individuals that was very healing to me to kind of learn all those facts and stuff. Cuz I was able to understand it through the, through the lens of my experience and kind of be like, oh, this is like that experience. And this is like that experience and it kind of brought it all together. Um yeah. Garrett Jonsson: And what advice do you have for someone right now? If we have any listeners that are currently in the porn industry, but you know, they, they want to transition out, but they’re unsure if they’ll be able to, do you have any words of advice for those people.

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And what he was doing there was basically seeing if I would be comfortable with exactly what was gonna happen to me in porn, you know, where I no longer was, is in control of my body.Her warped understanding of love and affection pushed her to seek out validation from older men on social media.

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I gladly accepted the drugs and alcohol because I didn’t want to feel the pain of penetration from an over-sized man or from being told to hold poses for still camera shots while being penetrated and choked. Welcome to LPSG.com. If you are here because you are looking for the most amazing open-minded fun-spirited sexy adult community then you have found the right place. We also happen to have some of the sexiest members you'll ever meet. I was actually thinking about this actually just the other day. Um, cuz I feel like the medical bills that I had for it that like just the damage is done to my body and you know, what the STI and everything. Um, there were medical bills that I continued paying, you know, even after I left, I, I just feel okay. You know, with all of those, if we accumulate all those together, I feel like, you know, it cost more. Hmm. You know, to be in like, I feel like that’s. It definitely cost a bit more for me. Um, I mean, I, I can’t speak to everyone’s situation, but…Aaron Crowley: I, I did I victim blamed myself. I was processing it in the sense of, well, you know, this is all my fault. I chose to go over there with people that I barely knew. You know, I, you know, it, it was all in my mind, my fault as I was processing it. But then the thing that’s frustrating to me is like at the same time they perpetuate some of the misrepresentations and profit from, from the misrepresentations of the LGBTQ+ community. Garrett Jonsson: Porn does normalized exploitation and, like that’s just straight facts. Um, as you were talking, I couldn’t help, but think about Terry Crews’ experience. I’m sure you’re familiar with it, but maybe you’re not with him being sexually assaulted? And it’s pretty interesting because, you know, he’s, I think he’s like, like 6’ 3” you know, 230 pounds of, you know, he’s probably like 8% body fat and played the NFL and all these things. And like, so I think there is that perception like that he can’t be sexually assaulted. That’s sexual assault. But because it’s porn and because sex is the nature of the industry, sexual assault is the nature of the industry. It’s normal. This is exactly what goes on. He was right there, saying sexual assault is a part of this industry.”

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And in case you’re new here, Fight the New Drug is a non-religious and non-legislative organization that exists to provide individuals the opportunity to make an informed decision regarding pornography by raising awareness on its harmful effects using only science, facts, and personal accounts. The allure of fame and fortune led Jessica into a 10-year career in the porn industry. She appeared in over 40 porn films and was one of the most popularly searched porn performers in 2009. Eventually, she was able to break out and now she’s living a happier life, but she endured humiliation and degrading shoots for a decade. Aaron Crowley: You know, I was not a safe, safe place to process what was happening. Or what had happened.With that being said, let’s jump into the conversation, we hope you enjoy this episode of Consider Before Consuming. Aaron Crowley: Yeah. But today, you know, I, I, I, you know, release forgiveness and have empathy for him and compassion and, um, that’s cool. I love my brother. Garrett Jonsson: We appreciate the fact that you’re willing to be genuine and engage in some, you know, self-disclosure and openness, because it helps us to consider before consuming. Garrett Jonsson: Being conscious of that, like the fact that you kind of helped that person get on set and then realizing what had just happened. That must have been a heavy realization. I’m just wondering if that was like, do you consider that one of your low of lows? However, it was only after Greg left the porn industry in 2011 that he was able to share the reality of why he started doing porn, and how 23 years of this toxic industry affected his life.

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Aaron Crowley: And so there needs to be a distinguishing there, is it a higher sex drive or is it hypersexuality in response to trauma? Because hyper sexuality and response to trauma may look like from the outside a higher sex drive to someone. Aaron Crowley: Was I going to submit and do what I was told? You know, was I going to acquiesce to the demands of the producers and you know, everyone else on set. These are popular perceptions when it comes to pornography, however, perception is not always reality. Aaron Crowley: So yeah, I was on that app and one day a guy reached out to me and said, “Hey, I think you’d be really good in this. And um, I’d like to invite you to, um,…” I don’t know if you used the word “audition”, but uh, he invited me to a studio to, um, take pictures, to submit two studios cuz he was kind of like a “talent scout”, “agent”, “manager”, type for the porn industry. And so, um, you know, like I said, all of it was so normal to me ever. The idea of being in porn was normal to me because you know, those pictures had been taken. I had grown up with porn.It’s time we stop buying the porn industry’s lies, and refuse to consume the violent content they produce that’s harmful to performers, individuals, relationships, and our world as whole. Aaron Crowley: But they’re being coed cuz they need to, they, they need the money. Um, and so now they’re obligated to an exchange for the money and there’s no true intimacy in that you can’t buy intimacy, but with true healthy sexuality of, you know, two people coming together and enjoying each other’s, um, trying to please each other, as opposed to, you know, trying to get, trying to get pleasure from the other, trying to please each other, um, trying to be pleasing. There’s just an intimacy and just the power behind that. The that’s not possible whenever money is exchanged for the sex. I was given drugs and alcohol before being filmed and then the porn producers would record me saying that I was NOT under the influence of any drugs or alcohol prior to filming.